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[partybabysitter]

It is not my intention to see you suffer endlessly. This eternal fate of ours need not be a grim punishment, I merely wish that you might allow yourself to realize this.

I would ask that you do not presume to know my intentions, Edgin. I care about Jim greatly.

I know how deeply he suffered the loss of your bond. Thus I do not intend to keep him from you. While it is my hope to garner the relationship you describe, I will not control who he chooses to bond with, or where he seeks his comfort. I will teach him all that I can, but I am under no misconceptions as to where his heart lies.

[juiceofthevine]

He's capable of having room in his heart for one person.

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I don't know why you're just giving up like that.

[ ironic, when Jim had accused him of the same. ]

[partybabysitter]

I fear I do not understand your metaphor. If he cares with his entire heart, how can he do so for multiple people at once?

Regardless, I give nothing up. Merely I do not take what I have with James for granted. I will do my utmost to ensure that he is provided for, and that he learns all that he needs to succeed in my court. But I know that my skills lie outside of the emotional, and this is an area that he values dearly.

It is the logical conclusion, and one I have come to accept.

[juiceofthevine]

Okay, fine. Just make sure you do take care of him.

[partybabysitter]

Of course. He will want for nothing under my care.

[ I mean, his attempts at helping with that broken bond were: sex, and giving him space, so he's not working with the best toolkit here. But he's trying? ]

[juiceofthevine]

Good. Make sure he's eating enough.

[partybabysitter]

I will ensure he has food at all times. His third season will be especially trying.

[ He doesn't have to add the next part, but. Well. He does care. ]

You know his past better than I, but I bore witness to a dream from his childhood in which he was faced with great mistreatment.

Do you know of these events as well?

[juiceofthevine]

Yes. But if you want to know more about it you'll have to ask him.

[partybabysitter]

Of course. I merely wished to know if you had any experience with handling such things.

I do not wish to cause him pain so I will not ask him. Only if such memories trouble his nightmares.

[juiceofthevine]

I told you before, didn't I? You have to be kind to him. Understanding.

[partybabysitter]

You did. At the time I did not understand the value of your words.

I am not certain that I understand them fully, but I know it is as you said. James deserves kindness.

[juiceofthevine]

Yeah, he does.

[partybabysitter]

Indeed. I will do my utmost to provide him with this, rest assured.

[juiceofthevine]

Okay. Good.

Look, I've got other things I need to do. But you know where to find me, if you remember anything else.

[partybabysitter]

I shall.

Thank you for sharing your memory with me, Edgin. I am well aware that you have no obligation to.