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[prizedstallion]

[OH! There it is. Xenk was acting rather normal for too long, of course he has to say something weird, but even if it's weird, it gets Kirk's heart to kick up and beat a little faster. Not out of fear but a little bit out of excitement.

What more could he do with his abilities once he was under Gold, once Xenk had him. Sure, he had no desire really to enthrall people, but the leadership, the governance, the stewarding, it felt.. right.

Blue never quite felt right, like a suit that fit but wasn't tailored - too lose in some areas, too tight in others. Sure revelry was great and all, masking taught him something about himself - his true self - but it felt like it fed into the part of himself that.. well, wasn't the one he wanted to nurture.

Especially after he remembered dying... being called captain, making that choice, it felt natural. It felt right and not even in an egotistical way, just that this was something he was meant for.

The hardship, the tough decisions, the responsibility, he wanted to be a great leader one day. A captain worth following.]

I look forward to it, sir.

[partybabysitter]

[ It's Xenk, he can't be normal. The vampire in him is too strong, too ingrained in his psyche to disappear, even through his newfound attempts at kindness. Gold will give Kirk the best chance at understanding power, the best resources to command and control whatever legions he wishes. (That's not what he wants, but ok.)

Xenk smiles all the same. This is what he's wanted for all these months. This would redeem him, and give him the chance to create a better legacy than what Szass Tam wanted for him.

No, he would never be a man that Szass Tam could be proud of. He would make sure of that. And he knows Kirk will make him proud. He has talent and strength, but he would need guidance. Xenk hopes -- no, knows he will be up to the task. He simply must. ]

As do I, James. As do I.